So I've decided to tell you all a little more about my girlfriend, Lauren.

I've know Lauren VIA the space for like a year... Turns out that we know a lot of the same people, for many different reasons and some the same reasons. All in all I really think It was inevitable that we would meet somehow... We commented here and there but never really talked. But two days after Christmas she posted a bullitain and wanted someone to go see Melissa Ferrick with her and i replied. We didn't go see the concert, but she too me out. Our first day was 12/28. She took me to see Brokeback... and I kissed her goodnight. She said it wsa unexpected. =) The we unexpectedly spent everyday after that together. Talking constantly, and then I spent new years with her. We went to her friend Mike's friends house... we kissed under the mistletoe, and fell asleep together on the loveseat after Michael got sick. We visited her friends and everything and then we went back to her Dads for midnight. I met her Dad and brother. She kissed me at midnight. It was a natural kiss, like we were "supposed to". I didn't want to kiss anyone else, either. After that we spend every night hanging out. Mike, my best friend Blake, Justin and I were really together.. a lot. Friendly's and diners. We all get along. Lauren and Blake love each other... Mike is amazing and Justin -- we all just mesh together and I love it. Before Lauren went back to school the MySpace status changed. I think it'll be a month (officially) in between now and Valentine's Day. I went up and saw her at school, met the girls on her floor and it was amazing. She came back with me because she didn't have classes for a few days. Every night we spend together ... it's so hard to tear us apart. I hate saying goodye to her. The only advantage is that if I say goodbye, I get to say hello the niext time I see her. We spend hours topgether. Most of the time I see the sun set and rise with her. Waking up next to her is one of the most amazing things I've ever felt. She went back to school again, and now we're at a stand still until we can be in each others arms again this weekend. =)

Now, to explain the names. Lauren is Sauce. Blake is either B-Roc or Talon. I am Spike. Lauren, Blake and I are such good friends it's incredible. Blake is my best friend and there's no one that'll ever be above her. She met Lauren and we all instantly clicked. There's no odd feelings for anyone. Blake doesn't feel some type of way because Lauren and I are together and Lauren and I don't make Blake feel odd for any reason. Blake and Mike get along and Blake and justin are a riot together. When you mix all of us... wow. That's a crazy time. EAGLE DINER is like... our haven. We love the Eagle. Lol. Ok -- Blake and I had this mission planned. She had already called me Spike and she was already B-Rock to me... and when Lauren came about she was automatically an accomplice in our Stealth mission. E.M.O 1. We needed a name for Lauren so I called her Sauce. It definatly fits...haha. She named Blake Talon, too.

It's cool because we're goofy and serious, and our astrological signs are very, very compatible. We're going to have a long lasting, passionate, sexy, trying relationship but we'll overcome anything.

We act very loving but we don't make people sick with all the love. We're PC affectionate. Lol. Definatly not discrete, but not clingy, lovey-dovey all the time. It's just not us.

But we're us and that's all that matters. =)

I'm gonna keep this short and sweet.

I'm happy?

The best friend is amazing. I love her. She keeps me where I need to be, she breaks me down and puts me back together at the same time. If ever I needed someone all the time. Happy, sad, hot, cold, hungry, satisfied, crying or laughing -- it's her. B-Rock is my boogie. I'm a gangsta, and gangsta's don't dance. We boogie.

Girlfriend you ask? That's right. I got me a sauce. Sauce, sauce, sauce. <333 Sauce, Spike, B-Rock and Mr Wright all get along AMAZINGLY. I've never had such an awesome bunch of poeple sit at a diner for hours on end and just mess with the waitress, cause trouble and frink so much coffee and tea at once. I LOVE THE EAGLE.

Work is work. Enough said. Except I seem to be working so much and making nothing. Hm. Ever wonder how the rich bitches never work and they have everything, yet decent people like me work thier asses off and have nothing? Well no. That's not true. I've got my love, my sauce, and my other crazy friends. =) The homo-IES. lol But you know what I mean.

Hm. That's all. SEEEEEEE YA

PS people. Check out my My Space 'cause I'm there all time time.
http://www.myspace.com/br0kn

okay, so i'm not the brightens color of the rainbow when it comes to common sense sometimes. lol

this is how my day allll started, lol ----

Anna: "Renee, can you fix my belt? Just poke a hole in it and make it a little tighter..."
Renee: "An, why don't you just get a bigger belt?"
Anna: "Shut up Rainbow Bright, just fix it!"

So I get a metal-tipped high lighting comb and proceed to make a hole in Anna's belt. Her leather belt. So you can imagine the force I had to use. WELL. I neglected to think "Hey, maybe I should move my hand out of the way before this comb goes throu----"

kAbooooooooooooom!squish.

Metal comb in my hand. Left hand, directly ON the vein, in the fleshy part of my palm. OUCH.



you'll be hearing from me after i get my tetnus shot. what a biiiiiiitch. but i'm one talented mother fucker. i sure did shampoo one handed today! lol

she's.amazing.

and she's allll mine.

<3<3<3<3<3 .........................................

 

i've got pictures, peoples!

 

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( Pictures!!! )

I've a cousin, LIAM!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay =)

remember when you were 5 and you could go up to anyone and hug them and it'd be okay?

i think i just need a hug. i haven't had a good hug in a really long time...

if i had a dollar for every time i wanted to cuddle with someone and couldn't, i'd retire.

your eyes they sparkled, that's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain.
you've washed away the best of me you don't care.

you know you did it i'm gone. to find someone to live for in this world. there's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight, just a bridge that i've gotta burn. you were wrong if you think you can walk right through my door. that is just so you coming back when i've finally moved on. i'm already gone.

THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN SAY SORRY DOESN'T CUT IT, BABE. TAKE THE HIT AND WALK AWAY...'CAUSE I'M GONE. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU DO IT'S WHAT YOU DID THAT'S HURTING YOU. ALL I NEEDED WAS THE truth NOW I'M GONE.